I had another post all lined up for today, but it dwelt heavily on my sin issues, and after yesterday, I figured I should keep it light. Otherwise I might wake up tomorrow to my Mom standing over me staging an intervention because I felt bad about myself. But don’t worry, Mom, I’m ok.
What I love about blogging is having to wrestle with all of these habits/issues/dilemmas in a healthy way. I have lots of thoughts flitting through my head as I go about my day, but when I have to write them down, I have to slow down and be a bit more thorough, following my sin-warped logic to its conclusion. When I realize that what I am typing doesn’t make any sense or doesn’t line up with what I know to be true, it forces me to mentally go back and search for where I left the path, so to speak. The same holds true regarding conversations about life, spirituality and matters of the heart; sometimes it takes saying the words out loud to realize they might not be true. Discussing these things, even if doing so brings out some doubts or uncertainties, is helpful. So is reading your Bible and praying through whatever you’re wrestling with.
I envision myself reading this blog as a stranger, and I think about all of the questions or arguments that might come up. I don’t always get it right, but at least I’m more mindful of who I am, who Jesus is, and how we relate to each other. It is good stuff, even if it’s a little messy. I guess that’s why journaling is so helpful; I am just journaling in cyberspace for all who care to join me. I figure if I’m thinking about it, someone else probably is too, so why not process life together?